With increased fatigue and decreased memory, the last eight weeks are being recapped together. Today, I am officially in the third trimester! This is both exhilarating and scary to say — exhilarating because Dean will be here soon and scary because Dean will be here soon!
I am definitely feeling the highs and lows of being a mama-to-be right now. I have gotten used to this little dude in my tummy, and there’s a lot of fear as to learning how to protect him once he’s top-side. Fears that are felt by every new parent, I’m sure, but still cause for some anxiety as each day ticks closer to Due Date.
Still, there is a lot of excitement as well. I cannot wait to meet my son and witness who he is to become. I am ready for this next step into motherhood, even knowing full well I am about to embark on the most challenging adventure I’ve ever faced. I am giddy to see what color blue his eyes will be, what hair color and texture he will have, to see his smile and hear his laughs. I want him in my arms.
Ugh! Here come the tears…
Out of the entirety of my pregnancy, the past two months have been the most emotional. I’ve been fighting a losing battle with my hormones each day and tend to end each day with some crying over Reese’s Puffs. (Yep, that’s the current craving.) It is embarrassing because I never know when the wave of emotions will strike. Maybe it’s hearing a certain lyric of a song while at work. Maybe it’s when talking to a friend. Or maybe it’s attempting to put on my shoes and feeling out of breath.
I have been experiencing both positive and negative emotions. There are the high moments when I feel as if I can do everything and anything to prepare for Dean’s arrival. Then there are the lows when I feel the overwhelming weight of the Unknown.
Will I be a good mother?
Will Grant and I lose our identities outside parenthood?
Am I ready?
For all the mamas-to-be and new mamas out there questioning themselves — you’re not alone! But also — WE GOT THIS! I’m doing my best to remember those three simple words each time I hit a hormonal-powered valley.
There’s been a wave of pregnancy symptoms over the last eight weeks in addition to the hormone swings. Baby brain has hit in full force, leg cramps and insomnia rule my nights, and ohmigoodness gassiness and reflux. I can only imagine little man is helping prepare me for all that is to come once he is here. This last week has brought back the fatigue I felt in first trimester too. Or maybe that is due to the insomnia… either way, I am still counting the blessing of some sleeping hours because I know they will be limited once Dean arrives.
The nesting urge is at an all-time high as well. Thankfully the nursery is coming along well and I should be able to relieve the urge someday very soon. A BIG thank you to Grant and his hardworking attitude. With no electric wiring on the second floor, a lack of ductwork, and limited insulation, the upstairs of the Pillar House is not an ideal place for a baby to sleep. Grant has been busy gutting the nursery, installing a subpanel for electric, and ensuring the second story has heating and air conditioning. All of which is a lengthy project with a very strict nine month deadline.
As the nursery nears its completion, I have been busy collecting and making key components to bring Dean’s woodland theme alive. Though I have a complete baby registry created, I have been able to find some great deals on essential “big priced” nursery items off Marketplace. I’ve purchased a crib, dresser, changing table, storage units, and more for under a total of $100.
Once constructed and in their new homes inside the nursery, I’ll do a little walkthrough post.
Until next time, friends!
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